Wednesday, 16 January 2013

What a difference a year makes.




So as you all know, it's been Christmas recently. Christmas is hands down my fav time of year, everything about it just makes me happy. Every year when it comes to Christmas I always look back at what I was doing this time last year and this year looking back gave me so many mixed emotions, happy, sad, proud but most of all it made me think 'bloody hell Jade you are freeking amazing, what a difference a year makes' so much has changed in just one years time, I have achieved so much I feel in such a small space of time so I'm writing a blog post cos I'm proud!! I thought I'd compare my last two Christmas's...

Christmas 2011 - Woke up at Mums, like always at redic o'clock. Went down stairs with Jasmin my baby sis (I say baby but she's 17) and my baby Brother Jack (who also isn't a baby) and opened our present with my Mum and Step Dad Dave. Christmas morning was fine, until about 8am when I had my first panic attack, this wasn't anything new to me at this point, panic attacks were becoming the norm but on Christmas day, really?!!! This was the first of many that day. I was unable to eat any of my Christmas dinner because I felt so sick with anxiety, panic attack after panic attack and I was only with my family in my own home. I believe I was having panic attacks because after Christmas dinner me, my brother and sister were going to my dads house to spend the night with him and my Step Mum and all of her family, people I have known since I was 16, once again a normal thing to do but my anxiety was so bad I couldn't even leave my house to go to my own Dads house. So I missed out on Christmas dinner, didn't get to see my Dad at all Christmas day and spent the rest of the day on my own in bed as Chris my boyfriend was working in a hotel at the time. Thee worst Christmas I'd say! 

Christmas 2012 - Once again woke up at my Mums house, yet again at redic o'clock. Went down stairs with my Brother and Sister and opened our presents with my Mum and Step Dad. Once we finished with our presents we got ready to go to my Dads house to spend the day with him and my Step Mum and family as we had Christmas dinner with Mum last year it was Dads turn :) I had no panic attacks at all about going to my Dads as it was a normal thing to do, I felt fine! We picked up my boyfriend Chris and we went to my Dads for Christmas dinner with my Dad, Step Mum, Step Brother and Sister, my Step Mums parents and her sister and partner and my baby Niece Nylah. We had our dinner, which I did get panicky about but Chris calmed me down and I was fine again, then we opened more presents well, Nylah my Niece opened her presents, it was her first Christmas so she got lots! Then spent the rest of the day playing games, the usual Christmas stuff. We went back to my boyfriends house about 9pm with my Sister and spent the rest of the night eating and watching tele - panic attack free!!!!!

So I went from spending my Christmas day on my own in bed to spending it with all my family, enjoying my Niece's first Christmas and having no panic attacks in just a year, hence the really cheesy smile picture, happy!  

I know I said I have achieved a lot in such a short space of time and some of you may be thinking that's not achieving a lot, well to me it is. Going from not being able to leave your house to being able to leave the house is bloody massive and to be able to do that in just a year. I remember that Christmas in 2011 thinking I'm not going to be able to leave this house for years, I'm a prisoner in my own house but NO I proved myself wrong and in a years time I did it. I still have anxiety and I'm still not able to go out any where in public with out somebody with me but that's better than staying in every single day. 

I even got to go out twice over the Christmas period, which made me extremely happy as I never have any plans or nights out ha so two nights was craaaaazy for me, one to celebrate my beautiful Cousins engagement and the other with two of my best friends from school. So all in all, I had a bloody good Christmas and it's made me super excited for this year, If I'm able to do what I've done in just a year, what am I going to be able to say this time next year! 

I hope you all had an amazing Christmas also!! 

A few pictures from my happy Christmas that make me smile!




16 comments:

  1. You look so beautiful! Love your makeup and hair (:

    xx,
    talkingpickles.blogspot.com

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  2. sound s like you had a great one this year

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  3. Aww this was so nice to read, I'm glad things are getting so much better for you and I hope it stays that way :) xx

    maddie-elizabeth.blogspot.co.uk

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    1. Thank you! Oh and thank you for commenting so I could discover your blog, guna have to steal some fashion ideas ;) xx

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  4. looks like a great holiday!! i also love the lipsticks that you wear. i need to wear mine more often!

    new follower :)

    www.thebechtholts.blogspot.com

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  5. So amazing that you have managed to move forward like that. Hope you continue in the same direction.
    Would love you to check out my latest outfit post :)
    Have a fab weekend Hun xoxo
    http://www.intotheblonde.com/

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  6. Aw, you look gorgeous in your photos! I love your makeup.


    love,
    Sherry

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  7. Such an inspirational and moving post, with very cute pictures! Really enjoying your blog x

    themaibug.blogspot.com

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  9. You're really pretty, such gorgeous photos here. You have a lovely blog doll, it would be great if you could come and check out my blog and maybe we could even follow each other? I am currently doing a giveaway on my blog to win £30 voucher for miinto and would love it if you could take part!

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  10. This was such a lovely post, so happy things are getting better :)
    Also I love your wish list on the last post!! We have the same taste!
    Chloe xx
    http://moonchild-chloe.blogspot.co.uk/

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  11. This was inspiring! It's so wonderful things got better for you! You look fabulous in those pictures as well - keep positive! Your whole blog is fab! Your wishlist is sooo me hehe Don't you just love UD Naked? My favey is Naked 2 but I have been enjoying the MUA dupe Undressed - it's similar so I hought why not hehe!
    I'm definitely anew follower! You can find me at http://thenew62.blogspot.co.uk/ or on twitter at @Rachael_Haile xxxx

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  12. I'm so happy for you that you feel better.. I can imagine that the anxiety affect your whole (daily) life, and that can be really frustrating. Also it limits you tremendously in some things. Just so happy for you that you see improvement. Try to stay positive and think about happy things!

    Sanne
    Confessions of a blonde

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  13. Love your blog, I'm following now :) Feel free to check out mine!

    Laura x
    Bunny Munroe

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